confessions of a foodaholic

sharing my life through food

is it friday yet?

ever have one of those weeks where you feel like everything is going wrong? it started out innocent enough with a great clinical day on monday, but it quickly took a nosedive when we had our second exam on tuesday….yeah….our whole class save for like 4 people failed it. WHAT!?? yeah…i walked out of the classroom and went straight to cafe to get myself a croissant, toasted, with extra butter please.

which leads me to the core of who i am….hi my name is taryn and i’m an emotional eater. i eat when i’m bored, i eat when i’m happy, i eat to celebrate, i eat to mourn, and i eat when i’m stressed and upset. am i hungry? usually no. do i know this isn’t healthy behavior? yeah sure. do i care? at the moment i’m eating….not really! now, i know i’m not the only one out there that does this. shoot….you can’t be in nursing school without the occasional binge. but if i’m ever to truly get control over my health, i have to break this cycle. besides, how can i ever educate future patients on the importance of nutrition if every time i’m stressed i head straight to food?!

so…tomorrow is another day to make a change, right? here’s to making healthy choices, and starting fresh….even if you’re starting fresh everyday!

 

as a recap on what today was like…here we go….(and it ain’t pretty….)

breakfast: started out innocently enough with a fruit smoothie made with OJ, mango, peaches, strawberries, yogurt and spinach (yes it was green, and yes it was delicious) and then a piece of wheat toast with peanut butter

snacks: this is where i get a little out of control….i munched on some ritz with sharp cheddar….and then i had some dark chocolate covered espresso beans…

lunch: i did up some szechuan noodles….wicked delicious….wicked high in sodium, awesome

more snacks: figured i’d go ahead and have some raspberry chobani yogurt, and then why not have some chips and salsa at my work meeting

i sort of balanced it all out with an hour long R.I.P.P.E.D. class at fitclub, but i could feel myself dragging, and i felt like i had sabotaged myself.

my redemption? a healthy herbalife cafe latte shake with soy milk to replenish my muscles

 

 

here’s to hoping tomorrow is better!

Question:

how do you combat emotional eating? i’ll take all the help i can get!

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finally at the hospital!!!

and by that i mean that we FINALLY got to have clinical after three weeks of snow and holidays!! it was great to finally put that blue uniform on, gather up the stethoscope and head on out to manchester memorial hospital. my patient today was real interesting…she had a history of schizophrenia, and due to long term psych med use had tarvid dyskinesia. now i know you’re thinking tarvawho? basically, her long term med use is causing her to have constant facial ticks, lip puckering, head shaking, and feet/hand contractions. let me tell you, it was a very interesting situation walking into this morning going on very little sleep and no coffee! however, in the end, it was great. my patient was really nice, and after she ate all of her lunch (which is rare for a)hospital food and b) an elderly person) i congratulated her and she pat me on the back. gotta love that positive reinforcemet! πŸ˜‰

so…onto the eats for today! i apologize, i have no pictures….my mind was not in the place to remember to take out my phone and snap photos (plus….it was 4:45am…..cut me some slack!) for breakfast i loaded up with some toast and peanut butter, and a bangin’ fruit smoothie with two handfuls of spinach blended in (gotta get those veggies in there somehow!)

lunch was a shmorgasborg of goodies i was craving….good ol fashioned pb&j, string cheese, dark chocolate covered almonds, a fiber one chocolate chip “cookie” and chobani yogurt. now….i know it may seem a lot….but figure in the fact that we ate lunch around 11:30….that’s almost 6 hours without eating…and if you know me, you know that after 2 hours i’m ready to eat my own shoe i’m so hungry!!

now i’m getting ready to head on out to a meeting where i’m helping out with some choreo for teens working on a flash mob to encourage recovery, rising up, and empowering people despite their status (i.e. psychological, mental, sexual, racial etc…) preeeeeeeeeeetty awesome if you ask me! i knew there was a reason i spent so much time and money on a dance degree πŸ˜‰

so with coffee in hand, i’m out!

question of the day!

what are some of your go-to goodies to have for lunch?

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chocolate should go on everything….period

this was my thought process as i was getting my breakfast ready the other day. i had been productive during the blizzard (yay for being snowed in for 2 days!!) and made baked oatmeal a la AnneΒ and i have to say, my house smelled AMAZING!! it was all brown sugar and banana-y (cause that’s a word) up in here and it made me oh so excited to eat breakfast the next day. now….i’m not gonna lie, i’m not a huge oatmeal fan. i know it’s good for you, and i know it’ll bring down my cholesterol a whole bunch of points and blah blah blah, but i just can’t get excited about it. by the time i make it taste good, it defeats the purpose of eating a healthy breakfast in the first place. but the idea of baked oatmeal…hm….perhaps it’ll be like oatmeal disguised as a really tasty muffin? we shall see

so off i go to work with my baked oatmeal muffins (i baked them in a muffin tan…portability for the win!) all ready to toast them and eat them as i work..when the thought hit me….I SHOULD PUT SOME CHOCOLATE ON THESE BABIES!! and so i slathered on the nutella (or whatever whole foods wants to call it….”chocolate hazlenut spread” or whatever) and BAM!!! healthy chocolately goodness in my face. done. it was awesome.

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thus proving my thoughts that chocolate should go on everything because it makes everything better. try to argue that!

to continue my awesome day of “food from other blogs that make my tummy happy” i decided to whip up something good for dessert. (mind you….this was HOURS after my chocolate muffin consumption….just so we’re clear)

i had an apple leftover from earlier in the day, and wanted something sweet but not “i’m going to make your butt not fit into your clothes” sweet. so what did i do? BOOM! Coconut cinnamon apples a la Tina!! so yeah….wicked easy….smells heavenly…and with a scoop of purely decadent mint chocolate “ice cream” on top was just what i needed!!

here’s a picture

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yeah…looks good right? IT WAS!!

so yeah…that concludes my day of awesome eats. there was other stuff in between, but not as tasty as those i’ve mentioned

Question of the day!!

What is the tastiest piece of food you’ve ever put chocolate on??

for me…i’d have to say that dipping a piece of pound cake into chocolate fondue at the melting pot in providence was just about the closest to heaven that i’ve ever been!

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good morning!!

happy pre-snowpocalyptopia!! just sitting here enjoying my mint chocolate chip herbalife shake (seriously….tastes like a mint chocolate chip milkshake!!) before i get ready for crazy day #129394930 of my life!! tomorrow we’re predicted to get hammered with snow, so i’m contemplating going grocery shopping after zumba tonight….gotta stock up! of course….the weathermen could be wrong (like they are about 98% of the time) and we’ll end up with flurries…either way, no harm in being prepared!!

with that, i leave you with this comic i saw yesterday…for anyone who knows me, this is EXACTLY how i’d be as a vet!!

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where in the world is…

sing it! CARMEN SANDIEGO!! sorry….had to! i was trying to think of a clever title, and that’s what i came up with! but seriously, where in the world have i been?! i haven’t posted in MONTHS because nursing school has taken over my life!! so many changes have happened since i last posted, so let’s share shall we?

first off, i have a new job! not by choice, but hey, it’s there all the same. i now work for a third party administrator to maintain DOT compliance for trucking companies around the country and Canada….try saying that 3 times fast. i don’t even know completely what i do, but i do know it involves a lot of data entry, so yay for using my typing skillz (98 wpm WHAT WHAT!) yeah…..

secondly, i’ve picked up another class at fit club! all of us fabulous instructors got certified in this awesome program called R.I.P.P.E.D. It stands for resistance, interval, power, plyo, endurance and diet. each section has it’s own music, some have weights while other sections don’t. it’s such a great class because you’re never bored!! once you think you’re at your breaking point with one section, it’s over and you’re onto the next section which is something completely different. the music is great, and it’s a guaranteed sweat fest!

 

thirdly, i’m in my third semester of nursing school. hard to believe i’m almost half way through already!! it seems like just yesterday i was getting everything together to apply to the program. nursing school is a whole new level of stress that i honestly never knew existed, but the payoff is going to be amazing. i absolutely love the friends i’ve made along the way, and i’m constantly reassured that i made the right choice in going back to school.

 

 

so yeah….between all of these changes, i’m rarely home, which makes for a stressed and tired taryn at times. i’m going to try to get back to blogging since i’ve missed it so much! since i’m trying to focus a lot on health, let’s just say that it’s time to reassess my health and get it back on track.

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oh cream of rice, how i love you

so it’s been about 4 days since i’ve entered into the world of unemployment, and i’d be lying if i said it was going great

i’m trying to stay positive, and i’ve been applying to jobs like crazy, but bills are still coming down the pipe so i’m getting anxious to get back into the working force!! hopefully something will come through soon and i can join the ranks of the paid again!!

in the meantime, in an effort to save on money the hubs and i have been active in making sure we don’t eat out and are focused on mostly eating what we have in the house…

so far this means eggs, rice, cream of rice, and some grapes i found at the bottom of the fruit drawer……

i live so glamorously πŸ˜›

so as you can see…health really isn’t a top priority at the moment…i wish it could be, but frankly i just can’t afford it. however, cereal and cream of rice are amazing and i’m excited to have carte blanche when it comes to enjoying them!

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it’s a brand new day

so the past 24 hours have sucked….like royally. however, i realized that i need to just take on an optimistic view point of the situation and start looking at the positive in the situation, and move forward. after 4 1/2 years, i’m no longer at my job. what sucks? not knowing how i’m going to pay my bills, afford my (very necessary) medication, or how i’m going to take care of these two cavities i’ve got going on. what rocks? i’m a free agent, ready and willing for whatever comes my way. i’m going to try to see this as an opportunity…a chance to hopefully find something more geared towards nursing and what i want to be doing in another year or so. i applied for some patient care tech positions both at Windham hospital and Backus hospital…however, i’ve also been applying to pretty much anything that i’m qualified for. i might have some new opportunities to spread the zumba love as well, which would be awesome. so for now, we’re looking at this as a good thing…a way to try something new, do what i love, and dear god hopefully soon so i can still pay my bills and survive….

*knock knock* hi unemployment office? it’s me…and i’m begging for some help!

so….i raise my iced coffee to you world….bring it on, i’m ready for the next step!

 

***addendum***

okay…so this is supposed to be a blog about me sharing my life through food…and there was no mention of food in there whatsoever….so here’s my contribution. i made pancakes for breakfast because i could, and they were amazing! the key? i added 2 tbspn of sugar and a tsp of almond extract….yeah….it was that good!

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time to clean out the cupboards

anyone ever take on this daunting task? well…i’m about to this weekend. turns out, my bank account is having a personal day, which means i don’t have enough money to go grocery shopping this week. solution? clean out the cupboards and see what’s been lurking in the dark for all these weeks!! i figure i’ll be able to find at least enough food to hold me over until next pay day! maybe…..

i don’t know about the rest of you, but i tend to be a food hoarder. I usually will grocery shop for the week and get only what i need, but sometimes plans happen, or things come up and not all of the food gets used. thus, it gets shoved to the backs of my cupboards until they overflow with random goodies. right now it’s looking like pancakes are going to the superstar of the next week and a half since i have 2 boxes of mix (honestly…how does one acquire 2 boxes of pancake mix?!) i’ve also got some green beans, and what looks like shredded coconut….time to get creative i guess!!

on another cool fitness note, i’ve come into a couple of awesome opportunities in the past few days! come october 14th i’m going to become a certified R.I.P.P.E.D. instructor! don’t know what it is? google it! essentially it’s a full body exercise program consisting of high intensity cardio, plyometrics, and resistance training all smushed together to give you a crazy workout that should show amazing results. i’m a little afraid of the training since it looks a little intense, but i’m doing it with all of the other instructors at FitClub so at least it’ll be a blast!! i was also just contacted by a friend offering up a free trial for CrossFit in colchester (my home town, ctown what what!!) i’ve always wanted to try it, so now i have an opportunity!! we’ll see how it goes!! if anyone has any tips or wise pieces of advice for a soon to be crossfit newbie, it would be much appreciated!!

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nursing makes you fat

okay, so it doesn’t really, but i’m starting toΒ really understand why most nurses have the most eff’ed up eating schedules! so let’s recount this day shall we? i woke up at the ungodly hour of 3:30am (or as i know how to think of it, as 0330) and ate my breakfast at a solid 4am. fast forward 7 and 1/2 hours and now it’s time for lunch. i don’t know about you guys, but that is WAY too much time between meals!! fast forward another 6 hours and i’m about to sit down to eat again…anyone else see anything wrong with this picture???

let me go into more detail…i’m a student nurse with only 1 patient to take care. this means that i only am delivering meds to one person, and today those meds happened at just 1 time. i’m only giving 1 bed bath, changing 1 bed, toileting 1 person, doing vitals on 1 person only once, and working on education with just one person…and i only ate once today after breakfast. those who are the actual RN’s on the floor have anywhere from 5-7 patients each, and they do a lot more than we do. WHEN DO THEY EAT?!?! the reality is slowly hitting me. sure, as nurses we advocate for our patients and try to teach the importance of healthy eating in order to maintain health however our own health is pushed to the back burner. do as i say, not as i do. yes you should eat every 2-3 hours to keep your metabolism up and keep your blood sugar from crashing. just ignore the fact that i haven’t eating in god knows how long and that’s why my hands are shaking and i can’t see straight…no biggie.Β 

 

i’m thinking that a continuous IV drip of some liquid food might need to happen for this chickie to survive nursing!

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sugar is my frenemy

so i was informed earlier today by my dear coworker that i need to start blogging again! apparently at least one person reads this, so the blog must go on πŸ˜‰

therefore Jillian…this is for you!!

 

it’s been awhile since i last wrote, but not much has changed. still loving food, still loving life, and still have crazy dogs

2 weeks ago i decided to start the body for life 12 week challenge with my friend jaclynn

we’re 2 weeks in and going strong!

granted, this means i get up every morning now at 4:30…but it builds character, right??

i have to say the eating part of the plan doesn’t go as smoothly for me

i start out really well, but then a box of donuts appears at work and before you know i’m 5 1/2 in

yes, i said 5 1/2

i may be little, but i can eat, and don’t you forget it!!!

so yeah…sugar and i are frenemies

on one hand, we hang out, have a good laugh, and we make each other feel happy, in that sugar coma way

on the other hand, sugar stabs me in the back and gives me blurry vision, foggy headspace, and pre-diabetes

i don’t know how to quit you sugar!!

if anyone has any hints or tips, feel free to throw them my way, because yeah…pre-diabetes at 28 years old is not acceptable!

since when did my health start to suck???

honestly, in 1 year my thyroid jumps ship, my colon says peace out, and now my pancreas is hoarding insulin for itself and not sharing

time to have an intervention

a food intervention!!

there’s gotta be a way to be able to eat what makes me happy, without sacrificing my health

 

okay, enough of the pity party

let’s see….things that made me happy today

Dargo really hates cars that are red and/or big…his mentality that he can take on a school bus is hilarious

i made turkey meatloaf muffins…they’re cute, i adore them

i bought a penlight today…it’s the little things in life

it’s fall, and right now my house smells like pumpkin spice, which is amazing!!!

and let’s see…it’s almost 8:30pm and i can honestly said i’m ready for bed

the life of a crazy 20-something!

 

well, i have clinical tomorrow, so it’s good night for now!

Jillian, are you satisfied? πŸ˜›

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